eryslash:

1. I'm writing from my shiny new computer, that finally got internet connection! YAY!

2. I'm addicted to the Overheard sites.
You'd Think If Anybody Was Pro-Life It Would Be God

Queer: So, like, let me get this straight. God got this lady pregnant and made her have a baby and then killed it so you could get away with whatever shit you wanted as long as you felt sorry?
Christian guy: Wow... I've never heard it put that way...
Queer: Sorry, I meant he killed him, it was a boy.

--Santa Cruz, California

via Overheard at the Beach, Jul 8, 2008

I MEAN. *dies laughing*

bythefault:
On second thought, if my asshole mentality's going to piss someone off every other time I express myself in public I might as well just take it elsewhere for everyone else's sake. There's no point in apologizing and trying to redeem myself for an honest mistake that doesn't reflect my worldview at all because it'll just happen again, because it always does.

People remember the incensed fuckups that happen when I'm still enraged over having all my irrational insecurities validated by complete strangers IRL and not the sincere apologies that happen when I'm thinking reasonably afterwards. Do you know how frustrating that is?

Those of you who know me (or have debated with me) know what kind of person I am. You know that even though I come off as stupid and close-minded I try my best to forgive everyone who takes a swing at me, that I always come forward with a truce in an argument, that I don't actually mind when other people discount my opinions because I value theirs.

This applies to Internet people but just as much to the individuals who gave me crap for no reason while I was buying my dinner today. They did me wrong but I'm sympathetic to their positions in life because they too are in the social minority and probably will suffer or have suffered the same abuse from others just because of who they are. That's why I didn't try to insult them back or defend myself. Yes, I vented off my anger here and yes I used an inappropriate term to describe the person who was most passive-aggressive towards me--a young woman with a notably masculine appearance and an extremely deep voice. Do I think her being transsexual or a crossdresser had ANYTHING to do with her being an asshole? NO. I was just caught up in my own repressed anger and the word "tranny" slipped out as I was venting my feelings. And people understandably took personal offense to that. It was hypocritical of me to refer to another person with a potentially offensive term when I myself had just been told that I didn't belong in the United States, the country of my birth (presumably because of my ethnicity). I'm sorry. It was stupid of me. One of my own peers whom I regard very highly is a ftm individual, so I should've known better.

Right now I just need a break from dealing with any more strangers. I'm vitriolic enough right now that I'm afraid I might lose my patience with someone who doesn't deserve it.

Friends only from now on, comment if you want to be added and have the balls to put up with shenanigans and badly-drawn penises.

taasla:

I am so mad with Mom. When the time came, I became a loser and didn't tell her off like I wanted to! She said she's forgiven Dad for how he treated her during their marriage and he's apologized to her. Yet the whole "I'll release your retirement for a car" turned into her slapping Dad in the face. She talked to him in person just to see the look on his face when she revealed that her claim wasn't $5,000 but $45,000. Then she threw it in his face that she was going to release it back in the day if he had bought me a car back in the day.

She's using me for revenge. I, I just don't know what to say or how to react. I am angry, very angry. I love both of my parents, but how do I react to this? Do I even react to this? I've accused Mother plenty of times for holding a grudge and she's told me I don't know what she's been through, and that I am ungrateful to her. Fuck, I can't believe I'd ever say this, but YOU are in charge of your self esteem and only YOU can help yourself. She's poisoning herself and using me as a weapon.

I don't doubt Dad loves me in his own way. If he didn't, then he wouldn't have been in my life. If he didn't, then he wouldn't have cried that one night when I stayed over at his apartment for the first time. She then claimed that it 'hurt' Dad to help me by sending me money. Wtf. Don't say that! I asked because he TOLD me to ask if I needed it. He told me, "If the bills are high, just tell me and I'll send you something." So I asked! I did what he told me to do.

She still holds it against him that he originally didn't want to adopt me. She likes to remind me about this like it's suppose to hurt me, but the truth is I sympathize with him. I do not want children. It might not be for the same reasons as him, but I am glad he got to be free from raising a child. A twisted sort of "best of both worlds".

She said she didn't want the money. Please, if she didn't she would have released it long ago without this whole deal. I just don't understand her. She goes and rejects the car my Dad did offer in favor of Ken's piece of shit. Sure the camaro was used, but it was in a lot better condition than the blazer. Not just cosmetic wise, but mechanically.

I just can't get into her head anymore.

questionstar:

Maaan I am feeling so weird and stressed out I guess. I used to write everything that was bugging me in here but that sure takes a long time D: Especially when its a lot of things augh. I've just been complaing on IM instead, over and over and over and makes me sound like a big whiny complainer OH WELL that's what I am! Also I ordered new glasses on saturday (I've had the same glasses for 6 years... they're being held together with superglue), and I am sooooooooooo broke now but it'll be worth it! I actually miss all my LJ icons too wtf I had this thing for years and only had one icon at a time for most of that!!

rakugaking gave me a copy of oc4, I had oc3 but it doesnt work with vista so at some point I have to load up my unfinished .oe3s and convert them D: But uhhh to thank him I took a request!

Considering how I havent colored since... last... december/november?? It's ok I guess. *snort* Too much airbrush. I don't like painting with harsh lighting but that's why I did it (cos, I should try to step out of that comfort zone at least a LITTLE... I guess). Did you know Luke Goss was once in a boyband Called Bros? HAAAA <3

I wasn't satisfied so I did something that WAS in my comfort zone *sigh*

Perry for rosynose :B Blue skin is harrrrrrrrrd though. I really prefer this painting technique, it feels more "me" (primarily pen tool), but it takes longer and is more work! typical
I really want to finish my Errikan poster (it will be my next masterpiece let me tell you...) but it'll have to wait a while I'm really all over the place lately!

I'm feeling kinda broke right now I was thinking maybe about taking a character portrait commission or two maybekindasortaIhavetothinkaboutit T_T But prolly cos I need vacation money ;_;

Anime Evolution might not be postponed after all so I am kinda freaking out (TWO WEEKS BEHIND SCHEDULE ON COSPLAY AAAAA), augh how dumb to stress over something that's meant to be fun :|
Here are some armor pieces I made!

Loooooooordy I still have so many plates left to make and my apartment has been a horrific mess for over a month now hahaha! I wish I had a workroom of some kind :(

That's all for now. I GOTTA GET BACK TO WORK D: I HAVE TO MAKE 32 ARMOR PLATES PANIC

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taasla, posting in texasaggies:
The university is taking ages to get back to me on my inquiry about the pet policy, and my COMM 203 speech is due Friday. I figure there's got to be someone here who has been an RA for a dorm or knows someone who had an illegal pet in the dorms and got busted.

Besides having to get rid of the pet, is there any sort of fine or other consequences? Is it easy to hide said pet somewhere and just bring it back later? And just out of curiosity's sake, has anyone every heard of someone hiding something as big as a cat in their dorm? It has nothing to do with my speech, but I'm really curious.

eryslash:

Happy birthday bigfiction! Love you dear <3 Hope you're having the best day ever. *hugs tight*

Cheers, guys. Love you all.

P.S. Fiore, Caroline, mum's not letting me use the computer tonight. Tomorrow should come a guy to fix the connection cable to the new computer and then I'll be free of her evil rules. *snuggles*

soulshelter:

So I went to see The Dark Knight yesterday with Thomas and Kris. (Kris treated us) It was one of THE most best movies evar. Heath did a perfect job with the role. I love Heath's sick and twisted version so much better than Jack Nicolson's evil prankster version. Oh. My. Gosh. It was just awesome all around.

Upset, again, that Scarecrow got the short end of the stick. He had five minutes in the movie, tops, and was a total dweeb. Blarg! Oh well. The Joker more than made up for it.

OMG Heath why did you have to die? If they add the joker in the next movie it just won't be the same since it won't be Heath. Ugh.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of updates, those few of you who read my entries. I've been trying to spend more time with Vincent and other things instead of wasting away in front of the computer like I have been. I think I've been doing a pretty good job so far. I just have to balance things out. That's a problem with me, I have a hard time finding a happy medium in things. I'm either all gung ho or none at all. I'll level it out at some point.

Thomas' brother is back for ten days from the Marines. That's cool. He's still the same old Jonathan, only now with a bigger ego, lol. Silly Jonathan.

Let's see, really nothing else to report. I've still been drawing a lot, which is good. I wish some people would take up some slots in my commissions offer. I'm trying to not get discouraged, lol. I need money! Buy a slot!

Anyway, I'll end it here. Thank you Kris for taking us to the movies. It was loads of fun.

taasla:

So a bunch of things happened in quick order today.

1. I passed my quiz with flying colors.

2. The leak that's left our carpet soaked for two days? AC is backed up and the complex has yet to send someone out to fix it. So we're trying to keep the carpet as dry as we can without making it comfortable for mold.

3. I said "fuck it" to my pill and am getting off of it. I switched to a doctor here in town that's on my insurance, and I will NOT stop until I find out the reason for my problems before I let myself be put on pills.

4. Dad's covering my medical bills, thankfully.

5. I asked for help, obviously.

6. My parents scolded me for being too scared/ proud/ foolish to ask for help.

7. Mother found out the real value to her claim on Dad's retirement. They both were under the impression that the divorce decree only covered the amount that he had earned while they were married. No, no, no, the decree covers his entire retirement amount.

8. Mother wants to approach Dad with a deal. He buys me a new car and she'll release her share of his retirement. He'll make a profit if he goes this route since the car that I would like is half of the amount of the retirement.

I feel very uneasy about this. I feel like I'm betraying my father even though it's Mom's idea and she's been the one pushing it on him.

9. I am anxious for August 1st to roll around and for me to go to the doctor to finally see... finally...

eryslash:

1. This is an italian, trashy, dramatic fanmix I made for me and Eledh a couple of weeks ago. You english people are lucky, I *so* won't translate anything.
( Cover, back-cover and download links here )

I don't even know why I keep doing this stupid stuff. Oh, it's because I enjoy it far too much xD And at least three people on both mine and Eledh's f-list ship us, SO I'LL KEEP GOING.

2. Sketches! I don't think I'm going to post them to any community, but I want to show you.

( Not really worksafe sexy sketches of Billie Piper )

That's all for today, guys. Big hugs to all of you, if you're going through hard times, and even if you're not. I love you all!

3. Happy birthday purridot! Hope you're having a good one :D *hugs*

buttfacemakani:

Ok well Photoshop just died on me after I had pretty much finished this picture so whatever, I have other things I should be working on. like idk good art? lol anyway, this was inspired partly because of binsybaby's human Wall-E and Eva, and partly because all the human GLaDOSs I've seen are seriously the dumbest thing ever no offense. Actually, yes offense, because human GLaDOS would not be a fucking loli or some other little girl with retarded animu pigtails. SO anyway, here's what I had before.

( well you found me )

buttfacemakani:

Saw Dark Knight. Was pretty awesome, no news here. Though what is up with all the Joker fangirling? Like, ok he is amazing, I got you, but EW THE SMACKING NOISE WAS KILLING ME. Oh, but my main problem with the Joker fangirling? WHERE IS THE TWO FACE LOVE?????? TWO FACE!!!!!!! Ok, besides the fact that I have a massive, massive crush on Aaron Eckhart (best smile ever ok thanks), the ugly face was done so well! And I had always liked Two Face in the old cartoon w/ his weird blue face xD. Man I really want to go watch some of the 90s batman cartoon now. MISTAH JAY. EDIT: I guess I should point out that I friggin loved the Joker, I just don't get some of the swooning going on.. xD.

MMMMMMK TF2 performance reports, show me urs

( mine ) MAGETS

I decided that me, my brother and his friends all need to go to A-Kon in Dallas next year and we will dress up and it will be greatness. IIIIII really want to go as Alyx Vance. I COULD TAN A LOT it could work. I swear I know someone who has a brown jacket just like that, and the hair I could either do to my own, because I have always been interested in short hair and I have no problem dying it OR I could just get a wig I guess. HMMMM. In any case, if I don't get tan enough or can't do it, I could easily pull off Mossman. And there's always TF2 characters I could genderbend x).

Oh and rotae yes I have your USB lol.

eryslash:

I'm writing this entry 'cause eledh_3 promised me extra-snogging. I'm gonna hold you up to that, girl!

So, yeah. I kinda am a little into Travis right now. Nothing like her, I mean, she's mad and all. I am too, just not about them. Yet, yet there are some songs I'm really, really loving. Here they are.

( Walking Down the Hill )

( Safe )

( Happy to Hang Around )

( Back in the Day (Warning: DW S4 Finale Spoilers in my comment to the song) )

AND THAT'S ALL, folks. Now I'm just gonna say that I love my girlfriend because that way I'll earn some extra snogging and because it's true.

I also have something else to say: CAAA~AAKE!~~~ ♥♥♥
...But only Fiore and a couple other people will get it.

Love you, guys!

buttfacemakani:

omg dr. horrible :| I liked it but.. I didn't like it LOL.

( AVATARRRRRRRRR )

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eryslash:

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eryslash:

Bad Day. I went to sleep at 0:30 because of fanatic X-files watching with fangirling father and scared mother. And that's perfectly good. But then I woke up at 4 AM, realizing ( TMI, Girl Stuff. Not that I have many boys and/or very squeamish people on my flist, but just in case )
So, basically, this is the story of how my life was saved by drawing porn. I'm still in pain, but it's just like subtext now: I can ignore it to fully enjoy the plot if I wish to do so. Of course I usually like subtext better than plot, but let's not get into how masochist I am right now.

Still. Subtextual pain. NEED TO SLEEP. I function after at the very least 10 hours of sleep only, guys. Coffee can't fill this emptiness inside of me. Sigh.

Good day. Drawn pervy girly goodness! Watched Mulder and Scully being the most wonderful pairing ever in the history of television! It's bloody_muffin's birthday! (Have a good one, dear *hugs*)
And also, yeah, did I mention Eledh's coming back from Latvia tomorrow? YAY.

buttfacemakani:

( the southern raiders )

shortybf5, posting in texasaggies:
Can anyone recommend a good salon for leg waxing in BCS? I'm leaving for my wedding/honeymoon soon and don't want to worry about bringing my razor to the beach.

Thanks!